i am boared....

here i am ...

writing after sso many days..

boared to death...

i am in office..

nothing major happening...

i am just typing down random thoughts...

rains are still not coming...

its too much hot n humid...

multiplexes strike has ended...

and still there is no good movie..

its been ages i watched a good movie ...

budget is round the corner...

too much of work to be done....

but i am still feeling that i need a break...

atleast for 2 days...

away from here....

donno if thats possible...

need to check out means to cheer up myself ...

i guess a good cup of hot steaming coffee...

- amu

Okhay....this is just another tag i found on someone's blog...lets see if this turns out to be interesting...

Here we go.....

I am thinking about ... ummmm food....i am hungry....I woke up quite early..my breakfast gone in some remote cornor of my stomach...n i am hungry...

I said ... nothing...its been sometime that i am really quiet...long time back i complimented serena williams whos playing australian open finals against safina...poor thing safina lagging behind...

I want to ... change the way things are moving...some people..some tactics..

I wish ... i was someone who had the powers like bruce almighty..atleast for some time..

I miss ... many things...many people..many moments..aaaaannnd opportunities!!! (yeh yeh...thats true..)

I hear ... right now...the live coverage of australian open from swati's t.v...everyone's watching the match on that set as this match cannot be viewed on any other channel... hah! :-)

I wonder ... how complicated is human mind and beheviour...no one can predict anything..

I regret ... not trying to get into cnn-ibn before coming to ibnlokmat...and few more decisions...

I am ...

straightforward ...but cant hurt people deliberately..

somewhat khadoos....but very good with my close people

carefree about myself...but too much worried for my loved ones...

look to be extrovert....but somewhat introvert..

i am....to complicated..

I dance ... for myself...with my music system full on..when no one is at home..or at a party where there are selected people whom i know well....its been a loonnnngg time since i had a bang....

I sing... actually very nicely..but that again for myself...my vocal cords are in perfect tuning..

I cry ... many times for many reasons...ofcourse many times my tears roll down as i am not able to control my anger...and tears is the way i emote.. and then when it comes to actual crying.....not many people have seen me cry...but...i cry...when someone hurts me...when i hurt someone..when something goes wrong....basically...i cant say BYE...sso...whenever someones going away...i usually have tears welling up my eyes...even if a cousin coming home for a stay over and going back....

I make with my hands ... good food!! yummiee...

I write ... to express myself.. coz i lovvveee it....

I confuse ...myself and almost everyone around me...

I've been ... a pretty good girl all my life...except for some mischiefs... :p

I need ... a breaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkk...a good trekkk....talk with nature....and time away from office for myself....

I should try... bungi jumping....river rafting...mountain biking... i reaaalyy wanna do it...

I always ... try to think positively...

I never ... give up easily...

I end.. this post atlast!!

hussssssssshhhhhh !!!

that's.....a sigh of relief...

this morning i wrote a blog...about what i was feeling

i was hurt with myself..

guilt feeling deep down inside me...

i had a strong sorry feeling....

i said sorry...and now...i feel ssso better...

although i had seen in munnabhai the importance of saying sorry..

i never knew that saying sorry makes yourself feel sso better...

really..saying sorry to your dear ones...to those who love you sso much..never makes you small..

in fact...it makes your bond more stronger ..tighter..more understanding...

i was sad...i was worried...i was unhappy...i was feeling low..i was anxious

now...

i feel relieved..i feel good..i feel calm..

sso much of emotions in such a short time..

that means...

I AM HUMAN...AND MY BRAIN AND MY HEART IS AT RIGHT PLACE!!!

I feel sorry...

i feel guilty...really sorry...i have really hurt someone real close to me..

it was not intentional...but its true that i have hurt that person...

never thought that you can say something real bad out of sheer concern and love...

what do i do now..i want to say sorry...i will say that..

i cant take this tension, this feeling anymore...

i am sorry...

...................

this post does not have a title....

....just because...i dont know it....nothing is coming in mind..

which actually can tell my thoughts..

right now...i am feeling....i ....i want to be..alone....

dont want to listen...dont want to be heard..dont want be seen...dont want to see...nything

sometimes...u just feel like being with urself...with noone around...

no chaos around..just a cool breez and....and silence....

sit by a window...and...do..........nothing...

talk to urself...and listen the birds chirp...

is this seclusion...or ...meditation...

getting away from people....or...coming closer to urself...

i dont know....but at this moment...i really need this...

some time...for myself....from my own life...

can i get it??

Its a beaauuuuuuuuutiful evening.......

beautiful evening.....

i am sitting by my window.....

sun going down slowly....

skies twilight bright....

cool wind breezing by.....

nice music playing on my laptop....

priyanka chattering on my cell....

i know i am doing too many things at a time...

but after sso many days....

i am.....................relaxed...........doing actually leisure things......

njoying.....laughing....n smiling.....

life is ssoo cooll....once again...after a longgg time....

yess...

i have decided something....

and nowonwards i'll try my best to do it....

what have i decided???

wait n' watch....!!

- amu

What to Do???

Have u ever been in such situation?? that u really dont know what to do?

i mean....u have decided about something a looonng time ago...

and suddenly that thing gets cancelled....

u have imagined somethings about that thing....

what to do, when to do...how to.....

and suddenly....that thing gets cancelled....so easily....

your the one who realizes that it wont happen....

and then suddenly ....u dont know what to do...

because u never thought that it wont happen....

sso now the cancellation leaves u.....empty...

no plan, no thought.....

what do u do in such cases??

where you have good time and energy...but dont see any good thing to spend on..

what to doo???

- amu

p.s. - right now song playing on my comp player is "hum kis gully ja rahen hai....apna koi thikana nahin..." :-)

DAYS OF OUR LIVES....

Some days are by default happy...

on those days u realy dont know the reason...

but u r happy...and excited....just for nothing...

and some days are ...boaring...

on these days...u have a lot of work....

but still u r boared....

u feel like talking a think rug...hiding under it..and snoooozing....

an afternoon nap is what u keep looking for on such afternoons....

afternoons like....today!!!

sitting in office...u imagine the rain outside....

the greenery out there....which u cant enjoy...

only thing remains is some dead story in front of u....

on afternoons like this....only one thing should be done...

ditch the office...throw ur bag on ur shoulders...and go out...soak in rain....

the drenching water brings some strange refreshments....

one cutting chai...and one hot spicy bhutta.....a close friend to share...what else is life???

amu

p.s. - "Days of our lives" was the serial in which JOE of F.R.I.E.N.D.S starred... :-)

After a loooooonnng time..!!!

its sso...weird...i m writing on this blog after ssso long!!
eventually the first post of 2008 after first 5 months are gone....
life has changed so much in between...
i have changed my job...and entered a new medium...a new venture...
met new people...new experiances...some good some bad...
some people are new but still so ....known....as if they were alwyas there..
and some ...known...but yet....totally strange....
life is in fast tracks....moving....tiring....
i am learing new things....
trying out some experiments...
meeting new people....
trying to understand people...
what they mean when they say somethings...
and more importantly...what they mean but dont say....
am i writing too abstract??? may be.....
but still.....
life was without tension few months back...
now its full of tensions...
earlier it was more of a routine....
now everything is happening....
earlier it was a relaxed lifestyle...
now i am always on my toes....
life sometime before had much time for loved ones....
now....not even for myself....
so what have i gained???
Money?
Satisfaction?
career achievement?
or....
relations...
people...
promptness...
more clarity of my thoughts and views...
dont know.....
but whatever happens happens for good...
lets see what happens ahead....
akhir...
picture abhi baaki hai....
lets hope i can get to write more and more....i'll try..

cya
amu

10 Favourites

Favorite Season: Monsoon....lush greens everywhere...clouds on the mountains...babbling brooks....n friends to trek with...

Favorite Sport: Cricket...Sachin Tendulkar Zindabaaad!

Favorite Time: ??? anytime....

Favorite Month: February....cauzzzzzz my bday comes in that month!! month of gifts n wishes...

Favorite Actor: Abhishek Bachchan!! ye bhi koi puchne ki baat hai....

Favorite Actress: Rani mukharji, Priyanka Chopra...Madhuri Dixit

Favorite Ice Cream: Choco-chip!! actually nnny ice-cream...even the good-old vanilla

Favorite Food: If anything can be eaten ....i will

Favorite Drink: Coffee....Irish Coffee...

Favorite Place: hmmm....my home's window....


9 Currents:

Current Feeling: Lazzzzzzzzzzy!

Current O/S: O/S...as in Comp Operating System??? Win Xp Professional

Current Windows Open: too many. blogger, gmail, ibnlive,businessstandard, newshound

Current Drink: Water

Current Time: 03.10 pm IST

Current Irritation: that I'm taking THIS long to fill out a simple questionnaire!

Current Show on TV: Team India's victory celebration at wankhede

Current Thought: Should i have a cup of tea?? why am i feeling so cold??

Current Cloths: jeans n tee.


8 Firsts:

First Nickname: Sonu, Amrut..my family calls me that...n close friends call amu..

First Kiss: Good Indian Girls.......... *winks* *winks* *angelic giggles*

First Crush: Dont rember...but college days.....

First Computer: HP one...with win 98 os.

First Vehicle I drove: ofcourse a tricycle...then a bicycle..then a kinetic n maruti 800...

First Job: where i am working currently and will be leaving soon....SAKAL PAPERS

First Movie I watched: i can't and dont want to strain my brain that much....cauz that must be waaaaaaaay back to my kid-hood (same like childhood)

First Pet: None **sobs** Folks won't let me! **sulks** "No space!"

First Shave: This is the kinda question you get when you copy something from a guy's blog!


7 Lasts:

Last Chai (Tea) : 10 minutes ago approx.

Last Movie: Chak De India- absolutely terrific. Gals rockkkk!! n so does shahrukh...

Last Time I Drove: couple of days back...drove my kinetic nova

Last Time Shaved: View Eight Firsts. Question No. 8

Last Web Site Visited: Orkut.com

Last Software Installed: an e-book manager from download.com

Last Pill I Had: Er...maybe Crocin during my trek in aug

6 Have You Evers:

Have You Ever Broken the Law: Laws are meant to be broken buddy...so i am obliged doing that :)


Have You Ever Been Drunk: Thats the last thing i would do

Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: Refer to 8 Firsts, Point No.2!

Have You Ever Been in the Middle/Close to Gunfire or Bomb Blast: The Mumbai local-train blasts. I could have so easily been on one of those trains...

Have You Ever Broken Anyone’s Heart: Intentionally...No. Unintentionally...God, I hope not.

5 Things:

Things You Can Hear Right Now: Dus bahane kar ke le gaye dil...on win media player...

Things on Your Computer Table: my backpack, umbrella (badly dumped), cellphone (underneath the umbrella), office papers, chocolate wrappers, water bottle, couple of cds, phone, empty cup of tea...(God !! i make a mess!!)

Things on Your Bed: pillow, bed cover, book or a mp3 player, and/or cell phone and ofcourse......me!!

Things You Ate Today: oats, poories, chapati, scrambled egg, pedhas

Things in Mind: Am I hungry? has my story been edited? how can i file story as well as write a blog at a time..more effectively...

4 Places You Have Been Today:

Dadar TT

The Siddhivinayak Temple

My Office

The Loo


3 People You Can Tell Anything To:

Lucky to have more than 3 ppl whom i can tell anything....

2 Choices:

Black or White: Black.
Hot or Cold: Cold.

1 Thing You Want To Do Before You Die:

See all my dreams come true.

If I were....

found this interesting looking questionnair on someone's blog...so filling this...
here i go........


If I were a beginning, I would be: Hieee!!

If I were a month, I would be: February

If I were a day of the week, I would be: Friday...so that everyone can say..TGIF!

If I were a time of day, I would be: 00.00hrs

If I were a planet, I would be: Mars

If I were a season, I would be: Autumn

If I were a sea animal, I would be: Dolphin

If I were a direction, I would be: North-East

If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: Centre-table

If I were a sin, I would be: A Lie

If I were a liquid, I would be: Water

If I were a fraud/scare, I would be: HAWALA

If I were a gem, I would be: Ruby

If I were a tree, I would be: .A Banyan Tree

If I were a tool, I would be a: Hammer

If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Lily

If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Pleasent

If I were a musical instrument, I would be: A Mendoline

If I were an animal, I would be: I guess humans are also animals...right?

If I were an emotion, I would be: Gratitude

If I were a vegetable, I would be: Bhindi

If I were a sound, I would be : BANG!!!!

If I were an element, I would be: Wind

If I were a car, I would be: Ferrari.....................zzzzzzzzooommmm!

If I were a song, I would be: Yadein..........

If I were a food, I would be: Pani-puri!!!!!!!

If I were a place, I would be: North-pole

If I were a taste, I would be: Tangy

If I were a scent, I would be: Fresssssssssssssssssssshhh!!

If I were a religion, I would be: Love

If I were a sentence, I would be: "I Love You"

If I were a body part, I would be: Heart

If I were a facial expression, I would be: Smile

If I were a subject in college, I would be: Taxation

If I were a shape, I would be: Elliptical

If I were a quantity, I would be: Handful.....

If I were a color, I would be: Red

If I were a thing, I would be: Nothing

If I were a landmass, I would be: A Hill with snow-cap

If I were a book, I would be: Little Women

If I were a monument, I would be: A Maze

If I were artist, I would be: A singer

.If I were a collection of poems, I would be: A Sonnet

If I were a landscape, I would be : Beach

If I were a watch, I would be: Tissot

If I were God, I would be: Blessing all and accepting Laddoooss!!!

If I were a vowel, I would be: an I

If I were a consonant, I would be: Y

If I were a formula, I would be: E=mc2.

If I were a Science, I would be: Astronomy

If I were a theory, I would be: Gravity

If I were a famous person, I would be: A future ME.

If I were an electronic equipment, I would be: A time machine

If I were sport, I would be: Cricket!!

If I were a movie, I would be: The Sound Of Music

If I were a cartoon, I would be: Tintin or Popey or..Jerry from Tom & Jerry...(i love bugging ppl)

If I were an explorer, I would be: Jules Verne's Capt. Nemo

If I were a scientist, I would be: Homi Bhabha

If I were a relation, I would be: Friend

If I were a river, I would be: Nile

If I were alone, I would be: MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

If I were a question, then I would be: Why?

If I were a hobby, I would be: Reading

If I were a habit, I would be: nything goodone...

If I were in an atom, I would be: fighting to get out of it!

If I were an end, I would be: ...and they lived happily everafter!!

If I were you, I would be: bugged of reading this dumb thing!!! :)

hi!
this post is just to say hi!!!
really
i am posting this blog as if i am amir khan n my fans will be responding to it the moment i post it....
anyways.......

hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

The Perfect Time

They say there is a perfect time for doing everything.
Things happen when they are to happen...
sso how to know whats the perfect time...
perfect moment to do anything...
when to get up in the morning?
when to go to bed? early to bed early to rise??? or late home, late to bed, early to office?
can u tell me the best time to eat? anytime when you are hungry? or anytime you see the food?? or anytime your schedule permits???
what is the best time to go shopping?
whats the best time to fight with your colleagues, friends and family?
whats the best time to say "sorry"
is there any best time to say, " i love you" or "i miss you" or " i care for you"...
are the deadlines best TIME to complete your tasks? or to start working on those tasks??
when is the best time to think? about yourself and others...
when is the best time to read? when all day goes running around??
when is the best time to make friends?? when you need something or when you dont need anything? when you expect something or when you dont expect anything...

and by the way....
what is the best time to write your blog....midnight 00:40 hrs???

thodi khushi...thoda ghum...

who will agree with me that there are some benefits of being stuck in the office due to rain?? like when i was stuck in the train..i thought about my loved ones....where must they be...i knew my mum dad were safe respectively at home n office...but where were my friends???
i realized that indeed these kind of situations are the best time to judge people. what they do, how do they react..there were some who called me up...worried about my wherebouts..frantically telling me not to do any adventures thing...i was at a home where the friend's colleague's mom took me in without knowing!! and then there were my own relatives whom i called for help and got a very very dry reply. so disheartning but yet i was not shocked! guess i was not expecting anything more from them but still.............here i was where called friend with the full confidence that he will surely come to pick me ...and on the other hand i could not tell my own relatives the same thing.....
then i have some people who are trying to keep me a company in every possible way...some loyal feelings telling "yes, we care for you!!!" and these are the people whom i really love!! i have just realized one more thing...i was also worried for very very few people....soo why am i expcting those to care for me for whom i am also not bothered??? just because we have a blood relation??? or just because they are my family??? surly these things are maddening but still....every coin has two sides...and i am the one side of it...

Celebration means......

Four friends.

Bahar barsaat.

Four glasses of beer.

Celebration means......

Hundred bucks of petrol.

A rusty old bike.

And an open road.

Celebration means......

Maggi noodles.

A hostel room.

4.25 a.m.

Celebration means......

3 old friends.

3 separate cities.

3 coffee mugs.

1 internet messenger.

Celebration means......

Rain on a hot tin roof.

Pakoras deep-frying.

Neighbours dropping in.

A party.

Celebration means......

You and mom.

A summer night.

A bottle of coconut oil.

A head massage.

You can spend Hundreds on birthdays,

Thousands on festivals,

Lakhs on weddings,

but to celebrate all you have to do is spend your maximum Possible Time with your loved ones.

Cause times ones passed will never come.. Utilise it….
Keep in touch with those who care for you........

It seems the world is blogging...



just a look around...and you feel that the whole world is blogging!

really from amir khan to some fellow visoba khechar ...

isn't it really cool...just open up your blog and pour down your heart!

from your serious thoughts to bitching everything can happen here!

sso you just want to say hi! drop a word on blog..

you hate something or someone write a blog..

or like me...just want express something without speaking out...correct! write a blog!

that poor fellow amir khan writes about everything...from ''Hi! i am in bangalore, stuck in traffic" to roger federar...but all comments to his posts say " I am such a big fan of yours!!! i liked you in blablabala...i saw your that film these many times!!" no matter what amir writes replies are the same!!!

nowadays marathi journos are petrified by some blogger who calls him self visoba khechar. this guy writes about all known unknown things happening in marathi journalism field. he kicks, jokes, gossips, pinpoints the flaws..but all what the readers are behind is serching who is this guy??? now the comments are less critic and more bitching...sure this person started to write the blog as a harmless fun now the things have gone all wrong...instead he has given a shoulder for people to keep a gun and aim...

on the other hand there is the intent blog by shekhar kapur. he writes as well as makes others write. many celebs write in this blog. from deepak chopra to suchitra pillai, rahul bose to shahrukh khan!

musician kaushal inamdar blogs...and that too sso intellectual and so well versed...i guess he is the only marathi celeb how blogs...but his blog is famous between the music lovers...actally his blog about a.r. rehman and marathi saint kanhopatra's abhang was the key element when we first spoke on the phone...i think this blog really broke the ice..!!

you know what? even anna kurnikova blogs! so does the olsen twins and pamela anderson!


my friends sharmila, sharvari, amit blog and so does me!!



so right now it seems.........the world is blogging!

Wish i was a bird...........

many times i think... why i am not a bird....

it would have been ssssssssssssssoooooo nice...

i could have gone anytime anywhere...

wish i was a bird like Jonathan Livingston Seagull..

I'll be there for you.............

sometimes i wonder.....what connects me to my friends...

because they all are so different...

i've met some when i knew nothing....i was kid at the doorstep of school or my home....that time we became FRIENDS just to play with each other....or to copy our homeworks....or just to eat out of eachothers lunchboxes...cauz everyone always had their favourite food in someone else's tiffin...

then came few more of them...just because we were in same class or we were some friend's friend we came together and throughout the college life became a group..after passing out and only a few months later i did not know a thing about most of them!

but its not the same with all of them...

whom i really call my friends....

with whom i connect, i hang out, whom i listen to very carefully and

actually follow their advice too!

and when i think what was the connection point...its so different with each one of them!

there are some like alok, avadhoot, madhuri, namrata and arti ...i dont remember when we met....because we were always together! not a single school memory of mine is without them!

then there are rekha and sheetal..i was very close to them in college...now i am close but not as that time....but again there is chetan...whom now i am at best friends terms...how strange are these things!!!

neeraj, shruti...rahul...so many of them...

then...there was no school, no college...still...there were friends....some were just friends because they were colleagues....some were seniors.....but yet some were friends...just friends....

i have many friends ...though they are a lot elder than me...maybe their kids few years young to me....but still we are friends...we have a good time...depend upon eachother...do things for eachother...we fight, we argue...there are days when we dont even talk to each other..but still we are friends....this is totally a very very different thing...because at the same time of being a friend they are somewhere concered for me as a parent....

ssoo i am amused about this FRIENDS things....can't put all my thoughts together...taking clues from my favourite serials title track....

I"LL BE THERE FOR YOU...

CAUSE YOU"RE THERE FOR ME TOO.............

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

So no one told you life was going to be this way.

Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear,

Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you,

when the rain starts to pour.

I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too.

You're still in bed at ten, the work began at eight.

You've burned your breakfast, so far, things are going great.

Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,

But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees.

That, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.

I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too.

No one could ever know me,

no one could ever see me.

Seems like you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me.

Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with,

Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst, I'm best with you.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear,

Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.

I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too......!!

Sandeep Khare Zindabad...!!

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